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Butbeforeitbegan，Trishwasdeseratetofindoutwhethershecouldhavechildrenornot。Shewentfortestsbuttheyshowedthehormonelevelsinherbloodweresolowthatitwouldbeimossibletoconceive。“Strangelyenough，thenewsdidntbotherme，”shesays，“EventhoughthedoctorstoldmeIwouldneverhavechildren，Ifounditimossibletobelieve。”
Severalweekslater，thechemotheraystartedbutaftertwoweeksTrishfeltstrangelydifferent。Itwasnothingsecificbutherbodywastellinghersomethinghadchanged。Onawhim，shedecidedtodoahomeregnancytest。
“ItwastwomonthssinceIhadbeentoldIwouldneverhavechildren，butIjusthadafeeling，”saysTrish。“LogictoldmeIcouldntbe，butthetestwasositive。Iwashavingababy-ourbaby。ItwasthebestnewsIhadheardinyears。AlltheaindisaearedandallIcouldthinkaboutwasthenewlifewhichwasgrowinginsidemeandmymaternalinstincttorotectit。”
“Ididntthinkaboutthecancer，thechemotherayoranythingelseexcetourchild。Thatwasuntilthedoctorissuedmewithanultimatum。”Trishcouldcontinuewithhercancertreatmentbutitwouldmeanabortingherchild。Orshecouldstothetreatment，carryonwiththeregnancyandallowthecancertosread。
“Therewasnotamomentshesitationforme，”saysTrish。“IknewtherewasariskbutIutitoutofmymind。Deedown，IknowPaulwasworriedsickaboutmebuthealsoknewhowmuchIwantedthisbaby-webothdid。”
“Mydecisionwaserhashardestformymumanddad-Iwastheirlittlegirlandtheyweresoafraidoflosingme。IwouldhavegivenumylifeformybabyandIknowtheywouldhavedonejustthesameforme。”
Luckily，Trishsailedthroughherregnancywithnocomlications。“IhadmoreenergyandvitalitythanIhadhadinyears。Ifdoctorscouldhaverescribedaerfectmedicineformycancer，regnancywouldhavebeenit。Itwasa10-hourlabourbutIdidnttakeanygasorainkillers-Idrathergivebirthto10babiesinarowthangothroughonesessionofchemotheray。”AndOnMay8，1998，CaitlinwasbornsafeandwellandTrishwasstillinartialremission。Fivemonthslater，though，Trishdiscoveredanotherlumonherneck-helymhomawasback。
“Iwasterrified，”shesays。“ItwasntjustmeIwasthinkingabout，itwasCaitlin。IwassoafraidthatIwouldntbearoundforher。Howwouldshemanagewithoutamum?”
Trishstartedanothercourseofchemotheray。Withababytocarefor，itwasgruellingbutafteronlysixweeksTrishwasfreeofthecancer。
